I've no idea how i make it through all the way here from home by myself. It's incredible and to be honest, i think i'm in a dream, a sweet dream which i really wish to stay in forever. I've finally got my dream fulfilled. It's unexpectable!
Lucky lucky me, finally, got myself "accidentally" enroll the MBA course in University of Glasgow. This enrollment has made me crazy, turns me up and down just to get a place and thank god i got it.
I'm heartless. I remember how i feel when i'm flying. My heard sank and it's so heavy as if the plane can't lift me up. All of us know that I might end up stay here forever which others are not able to stop me from doing so. I'm just too sturborn, which i can't even control myself not to.
They always made me feel so sad. I always blame myself to cause all this. But, i've made a vow that i'm willing to exchange my happiness with their forever love and blissfulness. So, i'll be alone forever. And i'm willing to exchange my life with their bad luck or death. I don't want to break my promise. I just don't want to stay at their side which will make me feel even worse. I have to be alone. I want them to get used to the life without me. So, even if i left before them, they won't feel so sad about it. I hope you guys understand and forgive me.
Always in my heart, my first priority is my family. Fate has brought me to them. Thank god and I love you truly, dad, mum, dage, 2ge, 3ge, 4ge, jie, eva, 2sao, 3sao,4sao, jie fu and lastly, i love you, kok sean. Guys, i really appreciate my life with you guys around. God is always there to protect me. I'm always lucky. I'll pray hard that god will stay by your side, protect you from harm and any disease always and forever.
Namo Amitabha.
